It's around 2.50 in the morning and surprisingly , i'm still awake .
i know i have to wake up early later but i just couldn't get to lalaland that easily .
somethings bothering me . i've been thinking about her since just now .

i began to imagine unusual things which are just a pain in the heart .
somehow , i't brings back painful memories of the past .

why am i having these imaginations ? why can't it just be forgotten ?
why am i reacting this way ? why am i feeling that i've never changed ?

thousands of things are running through my mind right now .
and it is just hurting . haish . is it so hard to change ?

i'm afraid the same thing will happen again .
Faizal , famous for being the most overprotective guy on Earth . hahs ~
my last ex , Shikin , have gone through everything with me .
and i would like to thank her for being patient with me every single time .

but all that already happened . i can't changed the past .
it's the present and future that i have to think about .

i'm not willing to lose another loved one . who would ?
the only way i can achieve this is to change .

i am really struggling right now . ergh ~

to the precious person that i really love right now ,
i'll do anything for you just to see you happy .
and right now , i'm trying my best to be the best u ever had .

Labels: I'm just dissappointed with myself . Will i ever change ?