It's almost 7.30 in the morning and i'm awake. i should be sleeping as usual by now but i just can't get myself to. reason is because im feeling so down right now. haish. ever since i got kicked out from poly, things changed.
i woke up to the sound of my grandma's voice. she was blabbering and complaining about something in a 'pissed off' tone. my eyes were slightly open and i couldn't really here what she was blabbering about.
a few minutes later (still half awake)
"sophian~ sophian~ bangun skola. takmo jadi mcm abg faizal. die tu tak gune. hari hari tydo lambat. solat subuuh pon tak. tak gune!"
at that very moment, i tried not to make any slight movement and kept my eyes close pretending i was still asleep. sophian got up and went out the room. and my grandmother continued mumbling and blabbering about me to herself, thinking that im still asleep.
my aunt woke me up soon after. i woke up, prayed, off the lights and sat on my bed leaning my back against the wall. alot of things is running through my mind at that point of time. i can feel that she is very disappointed with me. i cried.
grandma walks in, and i quickly cover my face with a pillow so she won't realise i was crying. i don't want her to feel bad. she asked me whether i've done my prayers and i said yes. she went out. a few mins later she walks in again.
"fai. nyai balik dulu k?"
in a sweet and nice tone.
"g sarapan dulu lah nyai dah masak. nyai balik dulu k nnti ptg nyai dtg lagi."
she was standing right in front of me but i just couldn't get my head up to look at her. i tried to lift up my head slightly but i just couldn't. and she left. i broke down and cried badly right after that.
i feel ashamed of myself. ever since young, i was very close to her. and now, i just feel that i don't deserve to be her favourite grandchild. i love my grandmother thats for sure. i really do )':
Learn to love people you're with because when they're gone you will see how much you really loved them ♥
i woke up to the sound of my grandma's voice. she was blabbering and complaining about something in a 'pissed off' tone. my eyes were slightly open and i couldn't really here what she was blabbering about.
a few minutes later (still half awake)
"sophian~ sophian~ bangun skola. takmo jadi mcm abg faizal. die tu tak gune. hari hari tydo lambat. solat subuuh pon tak. tak gune!"
at that very moment, i tried not to make any slight movement and kept my eyes close pretending i was still asleep. sophian got up and went out the room. and my grandmother continued mumbling and blabbering about me to herself, thinking that im still asleep.
my aunt woke me up soon after. i woke up, prayed, off the lights and sat on my bed leaning my back against the wall. alot of things is running through my mind at that point of time. i can feel that she is very disappointed with me. i cried.
grandma walks in, and i quickly cover my face with a pillow so she won't realise i was crying. i don't want her to feel bad. she asked me whether i've done my prayers and i said yes. she went out. a few mins later she walks in again.
"fai. nyai balik dulu k?"
in a sweet and nice tone.
"g sarapan dulu lah nyai dah masak. nyai balik dulu k nnti ptg nyai dtg lagi."
she was standing right in front of me but i just couldn't get my head up to look at her. i tried to lift up my head slightly but i just couldn't. and she left. i broke down and cried badly right after that.
i feel ashamed of myself. ever since young, i was very close to her. and now, i just feel that i don't deserve to be her favourite grandchild. i love my grandmother thats for sure. i really do )':
Learn to love people you're with because when they're gone you will see how much you really loved them ♥
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